Please waste, err, take the time...

[pseydtonne]

I find these emailesque questionnaires that are floating around some of the LiveJournals I haunt a little too overbearing for me to fill one out. I know this is a time of divulging gruesome details, but I still feel odd.

I love, and I have loved.
I've been used for sex.
I've fallen for the wrong people, and people not interested in me, more times than I care to tell.
I am in a very good relationship now.
I don't wish to trade that for a resumption of insecurity and naivete.
I've stolen office supplies. Heck, I ran off with a thesaurus last night, and I did that in front of my boss. I'm returning the thesaurus because it's the crappy dictionary kind; the better ones are the ones you look up the word in the back, find the number it gives you, and look at the big stacks of synonyms under the number. I probably should have looked at it first, eh?
I last got hugged and kissed on Sunday afternoon, when Maggie had to go home.
Since I am loved well, I no longer feel the desperation that would have kept me answering those questions. I'm not trying to prove anything about my love life. I'm not applying for a mortgage from the Love Bank. People stepped on me, I got tired of it, so I rolled up into a joint for a while.
Now I can discern drugs, perception, feelings, moods, responses, and people.
I am older. I'm finally starting to feel that way.
I've answered some questions, because I feel communication is important. I'm still learning how to use the LJ for that.
That's as far as I care to go with this exercise, however.

I'm working on a couple more comments for the day. More soon.

-your comments are important to us, ps/d

Comments

[moominmolly.livejournal.com]

very elegant answer to the oddness of impersonal surveys.

Thanks!

[pseydtonne.livejournal.com]

I'm pleased that got read. I had three entries inside me today, two of which I've posted and the other likely won't get out until Saturday. I feel better after I vent.

-time to shower, ps/d

[chaiya.livejournal.com]

Yeh, I've avoided this survey. For one thing, I'm not sure how I'd answer some of the questions. "Have I been used or used someone else?" Well, does my boytoy "count" (who goes into it willingly, participating in the sharing of affection)? And as for me being used, does it "count" if I knew I was being used and went ahead with it anyway because I was infatuated? I don't tend to like questions with simple yes or no responses. My life isn't that black-and-white.

[cos]

*blink*

Always nice to see commentary on a supposedly pervasive bit of net-text without having seen the actual text :)

(IOW, what survey is this?)