pseydtonne | Sep. 21st, 2005

I have come to understand that I may like writing, but I don't think LJ is what I need right now.

I got into this because I wanted an audience for my writing and feedback to improve it. I don't get a lot of comments. My other friends get a lot of comments. Rather than whine about it I have tried to understand what I am not doing that y'all are doing well. I realize that I don't write things that lead to commentary.

Simply saying "any ideas?" at the end of a post is not how you get dialogue. However, that does work in the spoken world. You say "like, I have this moth problem in my kitchen" or "what the fargh was I thinking when I thought I'd get laid at DragonCon without a costume?" and you get actual responses. This leads to discussion and mutant, more interesting topics.

Instead, I see that LJ isn't about telling a story. If you have a full arc, you don't get comments. You get readers, which is good. However, you don't become the water cooler guy the way you can in the outside world.

I need to slow down my posting from "at least once a week" to "when I'm damn ready to say something" and understand that I may not get comments. This is not about what anyone said to me. I am just not feeling involved in this community in a way that I need.

I need real-world humans. I also need to pontificate, but I have no idea whether that is what any of you want when you read me. I have to stop worrying about whether I am pleasing anyone so I need a break.

Frankly, I'm going too far explaining it this much because I want to edit, change the words. If I edit this, I won't wind up posting it.

Instead, I am going to announce my next desire: I want to start podcasting. I want my bullshit to flow the way it suits me most. I have a mixing board. All I need is a good microphone and I'll get it going in the next couple months.

This LJ was an outgrowth of my old mass email, Pot Sherd.