Seriously moody, need visitors

[pseydtonne]

I have been riding a roller coaster of emotions for no apparent reason. One minute I'm giddy, the next I'm angry, then I'm angry at myself for being angry, then I'm lonely, and soon enough I'm tired of my own weirdness. If I didn't have a penis, I'd suspect PMS. Then again, I hear men actually get some kind of emotional waves based on the same hormonal flux but we're raised to tune them out. You can hear a million dads say "shake off the pain" to a million bruised five-year-olds.

I need to get out of the house. I was out earlier today, but I was running errands. I need to bother friends. My mind has tunnel-vision.

Could someone reassure me I'm not the guy you try to avoid?

-spastic case, Dante

Comments

[metahacker.livejournal.com]

I was way too lazy to avoid anyone today. It was more of a "if I sit here I don't have to do anything" type day. That seems to be going around.

What you up to tomorrow? Dinner?

[rednikki.livejournal.com]

Come to UHF tonight at midnight, dammit!

[captain-flannel.livejournal.com]

Dude, I totally need to you, man. I still have you're Mr. Show DVD and I just moved to Maryland.

[anotherjen.livejournal.com]

I like you a lot, and I'm bummed that you moved out of my neighborhood. (hug)

[epanastatis.livejournal.com]

I remember when I went to a Jewish day school as a kid, their "health" classes were the best, because of course being a Jew school lots of the kids' parents were doctors, and of course one of them was an ob/gyn, and he volunteered to do the classes. He was so into it that a lot of the information he passed on may not necessarily have been considered age-appropriate at other schools, but I got a lot out of it.

I remember one year one of the wise-asses in the class asked him what PMS was and where it came from. And he explained about women's hormonal fluctuations and drew a graph. And he pointed out that PMS happens when levels of estrogen are at their lowest. And then he superimposed on the graph a low squiggly line meant to represent men's daily estrogen fluctuations, and said, "So as you can see, women are at their most irrational and least capable of controlling their emotions at the time in their cycle when, hormonally, they most resemble men."

I think I was 10 or 11 at the time, so nary a person in the class had experienced a hormonal fluctuation, but it temporarily shut up a lot of the more obnoxious boys.

Could someone reassure me I'm not the guy you try to avoid?

You're not.

Come on over!

[fangirl715.livejournal.com]

We've missed you... [sniff] Feel free to come on over today if you like--John is over visiting, and we're all going to Soundbites in a little bit. Oh, and what are you guys doing for Thanksgiving? Interested in coming here? Now, would I want you over for Thanksgiving if you were an awful person? ;-)

[starphire.livejournal.com]

Was good to see you and talk with you last night. Too briefly, like the entire evening for me, which seemed to fly at double speed.

You seem to have this unusual awareness of your own persona, wherein you claim to slip into performance mode before a group, and then apologize for that later - whereas what I perceive is someone who has a lot to say about a variety of things and who takes the opportunities to do so when they come around without hesitation (knowing what happens to he who hesitates...).

Perhaps that is tangential to the insecurity you express here.
I find the interesting people, the ones that I think of as enriching my own experience of the world, to be the people who integrate their personal analysis of things into the facts and knowledge they're inclined to share with others. And yeah, you're definitely one of those people, Dante. People who aren't afraid to think for themselves.

[danger-chick.livejournal.com]

Really, you are not the guy I am avoiding. Of course we've only met like three times and it is more productive for me to avoid the more obvious people (like my ex-bf whom I choose to now call Anon #3).

culturally sanctioned moodiness

[8ohdpat.livejournal.com]

don't forget the converse, raising girls to think they have carte blanche to be whiny & psycho (and get out of gym class) once a month (or the whole thing).

then again, it can be pretty damn painful, i always hypothesized its where women get that 9 times higher than men pain tolerance, cause after ignoring that every few weeks, you just don't feel much else. and i heard somewhere that men have more hormonal fluctuations in 24 hours than women do all month.

blame it on the season, my november was pretty bad for being consistent in anything (emotions, decisions, eating well, exercising). but don't feel alone in it, isn't everyone sick of their own weirdness?